The Sun

It rained on me again as I was cycling back. I thought the only way to brave through the cold is by being angry at it. I challenged it to make me colder.

I said aloud, "Enough."

When I got back home, the sun came up.

Note to self: God has a wicked humor.

Applies to Everything

Read from a book.

Rejection, get used to it. And it's not Death. Just one step closer to Success somewhere else.

Patience, without waiting, nothing is good.

I Forgot

This is a followup to the previous blog. I forgot that I should pray.






He has a plan.

And wait I shall.

God's Plan

I feel like dying inside.

But a part of me says that He has a plan for me. So I shall practice patience.

It's okay I think.

"Only Broken Hearts truly know how to Smile and What it's about."

DO NOT COPY THE ABOVE LINE. IT IS ALREADY WRITTEN INTO "HONG KONG STREET"

A Cold Dish

God will never approve of this. And I know I will pay for it.










But I can't deny, that revenge actually feels good.
And I'm letting the deed fit the crime. My way.

I apologize Ct, you stopped being a twenty year friend the moment you cheated my money.

Gone are the Cinema

For those who love Lost or 24, and for those who don't play video games but love the movies, please read anyway.

Just for fun, let's watch the opening for the "DVD Box set" Alone in the Dark first:


For a long time video games tell stories in cinematic ways. i.e. The three act structure, the dynamic camera angles, character driven, etc, etc.

The best example is Metal Gear Solid, Gears of War and Resident Evil. Silent Hill even.

As of today, I have a new love: Alone in the Dark.

For those who love Lost, you will definitely love Alone in the Dark.

It does not just have the cinematic story telling anymore. Instead, it follows television series format. For example: When you start playing, you play by episodes. Once completed, you will play the next one, starting if a recap of the last episode with a little preview of what you will see in this one.

Also, the opening theme plays.

Of course the players can choose to skip it.

Also, players can choose their "DVD" episode. This means that they can skip episodes in case they are unable to survive that stage. The developers have considered about cheating and in order to get to the finale, play everything first.

It is a sign that television is back and has evolved and is influencing the way we tell stories.

Again, for those who don't play video games but love the movies, I strongly urge you to watch this:



Yes, their marketing and style work. I'm sure. I. Will. Play. Alone in the Dark. I am going to love this word: Previously.

FUCKING MIND BLOWING.

Soon, TV will come back to try and take over cinema again.

Phil Harrison Interview:


"Are you safe/sane/sick?"

The Random Verse

I was so upset.

I turned to the bible in desperate hope to find encouragement.

Proverbs 28: 10





Now I need help learning about forgiveness.

Leaving it to Him

I apologize for causing a scare from the previous post.

I am still considering the ultimatum. But I'm leaving it to Him for I have asked.

We'll just have to wait and see if the struggle should continue.

Broken, Shattered and Nothing

I have forsaken human love, work opportunities, and personal time.

I have no assurance that things are going to work out. I have little support. I have too many burdens to bear.

If this fails, I'm left with nothing.

I will become, nothing.

Ten days into the new year and I'm already hating it. I asked myself today, how many times do I have to make mistakes in one single project of my own? How many fucking times?!








Upon utter depression, I have put this into consideration: Maybe the only way to stop making the mistakes, is to quit.

Smiles & Cries

I sat in the car getting a ride home. Today was a shitty day.

The song came on the radio and I felt worse.

I feel so angry and sad to the point that I realized how pathetic I was. Then I laughed. So hard that I cried.

The Lord has plans for me. I will wait.

Due for Operation

Mother Olivia went for a checkup.

The doctor says that a small operation is in order and she will be hospitalized for a day for observation.

It starts tomorrow morning.

I pray to God she'll be okay.

Apple Crumb

Apple Crumb
Originally uploaded by charles_carmen.

I highly recommend it at NYDC.

Food so good, you will believe that there is a God.

Don't | Can't | Won't Stop

Thank you Lord, it was an encouragement.

As I try to eat my humble pie,

I will fight the whole world.
I won't stop.

Not even when I'm tired.
Not even when I'm sick.
Not until I have proven myself.

Cos' this is all I can do.
Cos' if I don't do this...

If I don't do this...






I am nothing.

Watch out: Silver Case (2008)/ The Moment (2008)

Please understand.

Pray for the Victims

Thirty-three people the rest of the world will never meet again.

Read articles here

Pray for them.

In the book of Samuel

1 Samuel 2: 1 - 10

1 Then Hannah prayed and said:
"My heart rejoices in the LORD;
in the LORD my horn is lifted high.
My mouth boasts over my enemies,
for I delight in your deliverance.

2 "There is no one holy like the LORD;
there is no one besides you;
there is no Rock like our God.

3 "Do not keep talking so proudly
or let your mouth speak such arrogance,
for the LORD is a God who knows,
and by him deeds are weighed.

4 "The bows of the warriors are broken,
but those who stumbled are armed with strength.

5 Those who were full hire themselves out for food,
but those who were hungry hunger no more.
She who was barren has borne seven children,
but she who has had many sons pines away.

6 "The LORD brings death and makes alive;
he brings down to the grave and raises up.

7 The LORD sends poverty and wealth;
he humbles and he exalts.

8 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes
and has them inherit a throne of honor.
"For the foundations of the earth are the LORD's;
upon them he has set the world.

9 He will guard the feet of his saints,
but the wicked will be silenced in darkness.
"It is not by strength that one prevails;

10 those who oppose the LORD will be shattered.
He will thunder against them from heaven;
the LORD will judge the ends of the earth.
"He will give strength to his king
and exalt the horn of his anointed."

New International Version.

This came from a true hearted woman who is happy that God answered her prayers. She gave birth to a son.





Have your true hearted prayers been answered yet?